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nightmares, stream of thought, tiredness
Mar. 5th, 2025 03:58 pmI woke up at about 5 to pee. It was still dark, so I tried to get back to sleep, but it took me a long time. Despite trying to relax, my mind was circling, reviewing what little I could remember about the Citric Acid cycle (called the Krebs cycle when I first encountered it in high school)1 and its companions glycolysis and the lactic acid cycle. 2
Eventually forcing myself to count backwards without distractions did the job, and I went back to sleep.
A year ago I posted about waking myself up screaming
https://lauradi7dw.dreamwidth.org/809644.html
It happened again. This time last year, a lot of my nightmares were about Arthur leaving. Arthur is still in my dreams multiple times a week, but I wouldn't categorize any of the dreams he appears in as nightmares any more. He had a non-speaking role in last night's nightmare, mostly as one more passenger on what seemed to be an AU version of the #69 bus toward Lechmere. Flo and I had had discussions about which of us had more layers on and why we were still cold. At the scary part she was sitting in the seat in front of me. I looked across the aisle and a nice-looking young white woman3 was pointing a gun straight at me. I screamed and woke myself up, thereby ending the dream. I clearly wasn't going to go back to sleep after that, so I did my morning stuff and cooked lunch4, after which I had enough residual tiredness that I slept for more than an hour sitting up in the comfy chair. I'm still bleary. Of the plans for the rest of the day (jog while it's still kind of warm, move some boxes, get ready for online ringing this evening), I'm not sure that I'll do any of them. I did find the framed photo I was looking for of my mother with her mother and baby brother (the one who died as a toddler, not the one that I knew), but I left a mess of packing materials in the crate in which it came from my parents' house more than two years ago, and haven't done anything to tidy up.
My other big project of the day was supposed to be to find out how stockholders get a proposal added to a vote at the annual meeting (and the proxy). This is an agitator thing that happens in many companies and has for decades, but I have no idea how to make it happen. Most recently Costco was in the news, because the shareholders rejected a proposal to get rid of DEI policies at the company (so such policies remain in place). Maybe I'll find a website or a youtube video with instructions.
1. I think this was prompted by a twitter exchange I saw yesterday. Someone was lamenting that running a 5K only burns 300 calories. This is an average, of course - it depends on how fast you run, whether or not there are hills, your body mass and percentage of muscle you have, etc. Still, 100/mile is the usual approximation. The person who replied said to think of how useful that was evolutionarily. The point is that in cave person days or now, getting as much done as possible when food is scarce was/is very useful. It's also one of the reasons why the whole diet & exercise thing for reducing body mass is often not helpful advice. With aerobic exercise like running, the better you get at it the proportionally fewer calories you'll use, within some limits. Things that build up muscle like weightlifting work a little better in that regard, but people who carry it to show-offy levels are also restricting food intake (and oiling themselves, if they are really showing off).
2. ATP, baby
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citric_acid_cycle
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glycolysis
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cori_cycle
3. ie not the kind of person we're propagandized to be afraid of
4. At the recommendation of a person online, I have started watching Meghan Markle's cooking and hospitality show on Netflix. The episode I watched included making a one-skillet pasta dish. I didn't have any fresh cherry tomatoes, but I had some of the other ingredients, so I made it for lunch today.
Eventually forcing myself to count backwards without distractions did the job, and I went back to sleep.
A year ago I posted about waking myself up screaming
https://lauradi7dw.dreamwidth.org/809644.html
It happened again. This time last year, a lot of my nightmares were about Arthur leaving. Arthur is still in my dreams multiple times a week, but I wouldn't categorize any of the dreams he appears in as nightmares any more. He had a non-speaking role in last night's nightmare, mostly as one more passenger on what seemed to be an AU version of the #69 bus toward Lechmere. Flo and I had had discussions about which of us had more layers on and why we were still cold. At the scary part she was sitting in the seat in front of me. I looked across the aisle and a nice-looking young white woman3 was pointing a gun straight at me. I screamed and woke myself up, thereby ending the dream. I clearly wasn't going to go back to sleep after that, so I did my morning stuff and cooked lunch4, after which I had enough residual tiredness that I slept for more than an hour sitting up in the comfy chair. I'm still bleary. Of the plans for the rest of the day (jog while it's still kind of warm, move some boxes, get ready for online ringing this evening), I'm not sure that I'll do any of them. I did find the framed photo I was looking for of my mother with her mother and baby brother (the one who died as a toddler, not the one that I knew), but I left a mess of packing materials in the crate in which it came from my parents' house more than two years ago, and haven't done anything to tidy up.
My other big project of the day was supposed to be to find out how stockholders get a proposal added to a vote at the annual meeting (and the proxy). This is an agitator thing that happens in many companies and has for decades, but I have no idea how to make it happen. Most recently Costco was in the news, because the shareholders rejected a proposal to get rid of DEI policies at the company (so such policies remain in place). Maybe I'll find a website or a youtube video with instructions.
1. I think this was prompted by a twitter exchange I saw yesterday. Someone was lamenting that running a 5K only burns 300 calories. This is an average, of course - it depends on how fast you run, whether or not there are hills, your body mass and percentage of muscle you have, etc. Still, 100/mile is the usual approximation. The person who replied said to think of how useful that was evolutionarily. The point is that in cave person days or now, getting as much done as possible when food is scarce was/is very useful. It's also one of the reasons why the whole diet & exercise thing for reducing body mass is often not helpful advice. With aerobic exercise like running, the better you get at it the proportionally fewer calories you'll use, within some limits. Things that build up muscle like weightlifting work a little better in that regard, but people who carry it to show-offy levels are also restricting food intake (and oiling themselves, if they are really showing off).
2. ATP, baby
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citric_acid_cycle
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glycolysis
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cori_cycle
3. ie not the kind of person we're propagandized to be afraid of
4. At the recommendation of a person online, I have started watching Meghan Markle's cooking and hospitality show on Netflix. The episode I watched included making a one-skillet pasta dish. I didn't have any fresh cherry tomatoes, but I had some of the other ingredients, so I made it for lunch today.
