this represents my attitude pretty well

[lauradi7dw]

or maybe it's just that I can't conceive of having an empty mind. It's a problem when I want to try to do something like meditate (or concentrate, or sometimes get to sleep), but it keeps me from being bored. It's not that I'm missing the whole "entertain me" urge, because I'm an avid consumer of media, but I don't have to jump to something new after a brief experience. I think my Tai Chi instructor is a good fit for me in that way. I've been acquainted with the Yang 24 form for a decade, anyway, and yet going back to it as we did this spring, trying to achieve flow, seemed like a totally new experience. I changed the way I was breathing in different parts of it, I altered the angle my foot landed in a couple of places, stuff like that. Hmm. Does that make it be a new experience, or an enhanced old one? I'd been thinking of it as the latter, but maybe it is new, in which case I'm like those other people looking for something new. It's just that in my case the new experience is often the same old thing but with an effort to do it better.